Fuck. I was wandering around my page for like 20 minutes trying to figure out how to submit a new journal entry.

It's been too long..

Hey. Since you're reading this, will you do me a huge favor?
Leave a comment, please? Just so I know somebody still looks me up every now and then, cares what I have to say, what I'm thinking and feeling. Anything works.

So, this is mostly a post because I found a new quiz sort of thing.
And I love those.
I do them because I hope people will see who I am without the wall I put up at school and such, and like me.
I think.

Hmm.

Also, I will probably rant. But not too much, it's almost 2AM, and I'm reading Billy Budd for tomorrow's test on it. Hah.

I want to go off on a tangent about how much fun I am having doing *---------* because a few day's ago I *---------*, but you never know who's reading these things anymore, and a confession could probably get me in some deep shit.

Anyhow.

Quiz!


1. Smoked. [x]
2. Consumed alcohol. [x]
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. [x]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex. [x]
6. Had sex. [ ]
7. Had someone in your room other than family. [x]
8. Watched porn. [x]
9. Bought porn. [ ] (ha, why would you do that when there's an internet?)
10. Done drugs. []
TOTAL: 7

1. Taken painkillers. [ ]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine. [x]
3. Lied to your parents. [x]
4. Lied to a friend. [x]
5. Been to rehab. [ ]
6. Done something illegal. [x]
7. Cut yourself. [x]
8. Hurt someone. [x]
9. Been to a club. [ ]
10. Seen someone die.[ ] (I don't think it counts if you saw it on the TV/internet, so this is blank)
TOTAL: 6

1. Missed curfew. [x]
2. Stayed out all night. [x]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. [x]
4. Been to a therapist. [x]
5. Snuck out of the house. [x]
6. Dyed your hair. [x]
7. Received a ticket. [ ]
8. Been in an accident. [x]
9. Wished someone to die. [x]
10. Been to a bar. [x]
TOTAL: 9

1. Been to a wild party. [ ]
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade. [ ]
3. Drank more than four beers in a night. [ ]
4. Had a spring break in Florida. [ ]
5. Sniffed anything. [x] (what? I snorted kool-aid once.)
6. Wore black nail polish. [x]
7. Wore arm bands. [ ]
8. Wore t-shirts with band names. [x]
9. Listened to rap. [x] (not like, by my choice?)
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD. [ ]
TOTAL: 4

1. Dressed Gothic. [ ]
2. Dressed prep. [ ]
3. Dressed punk. [x]
4. Dressed grunge. [x]
5. Stole something. [x]
6. Been too drunk to remember anything. [ ]
7. Blacked out. [ ]
8. Fainted. [x] (Did you know too much helium makes you faint?)
9. Had a crush on a neighbor. [ ]
TOTAL: 4

1. Snuck into someone else's room. [x] (Someone's house, too.)
2. Had a crush on your friend. [x]
3. Been to a concert. [x]
4. Dry-humped someone. [x]
5. Been called a slut. [x]
6. Called someone a slut. [x]
7. Installed speakers in your car.[ ]
8. Broken a mirror. [x]
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. [x]
10. Brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush. [x]
TOTAL: 9

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. [ ] (who?)
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater. [x]
3. Cruised the mall. [x]
4. Skipped school. [x] (Wednesday of this week, actually)
5. Had surgery. [ ]
6. Had an injury. [x]
7. Gone to court. [ ]
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. [x]
9. Caught something on fire. [x]
10. Lied about your age. [x]
TOTAL: 7

1. Owned/rented an apartment.[ ]
2. Broke the law in the police's presence. [x]
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf. [ ]
4. Got in trouble with the police. [x] (My uncle is a cop. Does that count?)
5. Talked to a stranger. [x]
6. Hugged a stranger. [ ]
7. Kissed a stranger. [ ]
8. Rode in the car with a stranger. [ ]
9. Been harassed. [x]
10. Been verbally harassed. [x]
TOTAL: 4

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online. [x] (Meep, Dandy, Mandy!)
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight. [x] (My record is 36 hours)
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. [x] (8hours)
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight. [x]
5. Been to a fair. [x]
6. Been called a bad influence. [x]
7. Drink and drive. [ ]
8. Prank-called someone. [ ]
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
10. Cheated on a test. [x]
TOTAL: 8

FULL TOTAL: 58

-If You Have Less Then 10.. write [I'm a Goody Goody.]
-If You Have More Than 10.. write [I'm still a goody goody.]
-If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average.]***
-If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid.]
-If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence.]
-If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person.]


Okay, so I guess I'm a horrible person.

Is that really true, though?

Morally, more than likely.

But I bet I'm a hell of a lot more fun than anyone with under 50. Interesting, too. Or at least, I really hope I am.



Hm.

I can't forget what I was going to rant about.
And by forget, I meant remember. Shit.

........
I've taken up writing.
I'm not very good, I think.
Want to see?
'' When the rain hits your umbrella, you hear a very distinct noise. You hear static. And what is static, exactly? Pretty much anyone can tell you it means that it means the TV channel isn't transmitting right, or at all. Static is a lack of communication, white noise, meaningless and dull. And it's all you hear with your umbrella, because by not getting wet, you're not getting the message. Leave your umbrella at home next time it's raining. Go outside, the same way you would if you did have it, and just.. absorb, everything you can. The world is sending you a message, and it's open to interpretation. *goes on and on about rain. because I like rain. blah blah. It needs a lot of work. I actually only have some main points I wanted to cover jotted down, and I bullshitted this for your sake..


Oh, also, my tablet is being sent in for repairs.
It's about fucking time, I think.
So I might be doing some of that now.

Mostly, in all honesty, I'm just not home.
If I do go online while I'm out, it's usually just to check something.
I'm on late at night, 11ish mostly, playing [link] (as stiqe) most nights, though..

I really wish I could remember what I was going to go on about, but I'm sure you're probably relieved. I know I talk for ages. All the time. I think it's because I'm afraid that otherwise, people won't hear me.


........


only one more year of high school...

I have a few careers in mind.
I want to go to Oberlin, in Ohio, for college.
And study environmental things.

And I think I want to be a trucker. No. I really want to be a trucker.
Or a Masseuse. (spelling?) Massage therapy is interesting, for some reason.


I still don't have a house.
And I have to mow a lawn, rake leaves, sweep sidewalks, care for flowers, and service computers, on and off every week, otherwise I don't get to take showers because the old lady we're staying with is this holier-than-thou bitch, and my mother is kissing her ass because the old lady gave her 4000 bucks for a new car after our truck got repossesed a few days ago.

I really fucking hate this place.

I'm going to start working at sunflower market, there's one that recently opened fairly close to my house. If I get the job, I mean. I hope I don't, in all honesty, because then I would have less and less time with my only source of comfort.

Wait a minute.
I'm not ranting anymore, I'm just sort of bitching about my life and procrastinating with my English studies.

Shit.




Hm.

I'll try my very hardest to post a new journal at least once a week, and new art or writing as soon as it's produced (bi-weekly, perhaps?), if it turns out people read this. I'll check back on the weekend, I think.
Also, I always take requests. I just suck at finishing them 100% of the time.


Nrrg.
Gonna go study.


Goodnight.
I love you.
(sweet dreams)